Wake Up Call

Dearest hubby Andrew,

I just had a huge wake up call this morning after wishing you good night.

I went through our texts on my phone again as I sometimes do when I miss you a lot. I read through all the sweet messages that we sent to each other when we were together and when we were apart. But as I was going through them, I realised something when I was reading the texts that I sent you: You were right! I snap at you too often for the littlest things. Sometimes without even realising it. And I just want to say how sorry I am for that. I really am truly sorry for the way that I have behaved, acted and reacted.

I always thought that I was a  good and loving girlfriend to you but apparently I was wrong. I was insensitive to your feelings. Only now do I realise how tolerant and patient you've been with me all these years. You are sweet and loving and caring and all I seem to have done is complain. I always thought I appreciated what you did for me, which I do, but it's clear to me now how I've actually under-appreciated you and what you've done for me all these while.

Reading those texts again was really a huge slap in my face. It is no wonder you ended things with me earlier last year and wanted to do the same again the night before I left. I now understand why you had the doubts that you had or perhaps still have. So all I can do now is hope. Hope that you can give us a chance to prove to you that I can be a better girlfriend to you. Hope that I will be able to change, not for you but for myself if I ever want us to be truly happy again - just so you know, I'm happiest when I'm with you.

I want us to be happy again and I want to see you smile again. I want to know that I am still precious to you. I want to know that you're always thinking of me and that I'm hardly out of your mind. I want to know that I'm still worth every second of your time because... You are precious to me. I'm always thinking about you and you're hardly ever out of my mind. And you're definitely worth every second of my time...

Once again, I am really, really truly sorry for everything. For the hurt and pain and everything else that I've caused you.

From your honey who will always love you no matter what,
Priscilla.