One Year Down, Four More To Go

Today is the first anniversary of my job as a teacher.

I can't believe how quickly time has gone by. To think that, all my life, teaching was the last thing I've ever wanted to do. Now, it has become one of the most enjoyable jobs I've ever had in my working life. Yes, it can sometimes be quite tough when faced with challenges. For example, when you can't get your students' attention; when you're lost when you're teaching; when you run of out ideas on how to explain a certain topic to your students; when you've taught your students something that they understood three weeks ago but have now forgotten. But all these are nothing compared to when just ONE of your students show some improvement in terms of their written work and/or oral skills in class. The feeling you get when you've achieved something, no matter how big or small, is truly rewarding. And it just puts a smile on your face.

But even though time is going by as quickly as it is, it's not going quick enough for when the day comes until I get to hold you again in my arms. Today is the fifteenth day since I've left UK. And hundreds of days more until I see you again... See you again soon, hubby.

*bao bao*

p/s: In spite of this, I would love to be a housewife to take care of the ones I love someday.

I Won't Give Up On Us

"I Won't Give Up" by Jason Mraz


When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up


And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find


'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up


I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.


I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Wake Up Call

Dearest hubby Andrew,

I just had a huge wake up call this morning after wishing you good night.

I went through our texts on my phone again as I sometimes do when I miss you a lot. I read through all the sweet messages that we sent to each other when we were together and when we were apart. But as I was going through them, I realised something when I was reading the texts that I sent you: You were right! I snap at you too often for the littlest things. Sometimes without even realising it. And I just want to say how sorry I am for that. I really am truly sorry for the way that I have behaved, acted and reacted.

I always thought that I was a  good and loving girlfriend to you but apparently I was wrong. I was insensitive to your feelings. Only now do I realise how tolerant and patient you've been with me all these years. You are sweet and loving and caring and all I seem to have done is complain. I always thought I appreciated what you did for me, which I do, but it's clear to me now how I've actually under-appreciated you and what you've done for me all these while.

Reading those texts again was really a huge slap in my face. It is no wonder you ended things with me earlier last year and wanted to do the same again the night before I left. I now understand why you had the doubts that you had or perhaps still have. So all I can do now is hope. Hope that you can give us a chance to prove to you that I can be a better girlfriend to you. Hope that I will be able to change, not for you but for myself if I ever want us to be truly happy again - just so you know, I'm happiest when I'm with you.

I want us to be happy again and I want to see you smile again. I want to know that I am still precious to you. I want to know that you're always thinking of me and that I'm hardly out of your mind. I want to know that I'm still worth every second of your time because... You are precious to me. I'm always thinking about you and you're hardly ever out of my mind. And you're definitely worth every second of my time...

Once again, I am really, really truly sorry for everything. For the hurt and pain and everything else that I've caused you.

From your honey who will always love you no matter what,
Priscilla.

Always on My Mind

You know how there's always that one person on your mind before you go to sleep or when you wake up?

To me, that person has always been you in the last few years.

Thinking of you...

Loving you and missing you lots, hubby! xox

Lovesick

Hubby, maybe it's a good thing you're feeling sick. Hehe... Here's why I'm saying this:

When I was sick for a long time last year after we visited each other during the holidays, one of my colleagues told me that it's because I miss you very much. He said that when two people who are in love have been spending a lot of time together and then one (or both) of them falls sick when they get separated, it means that the he or she misses the one that he or she loves very much.

Since I've just visited you for Christmas holidays and you've fallen ill when I left... That means you miss me very much! Hehe... =)

I know this is just a myth/superstition but I like this interpretation of why you're not feeling well.

In spite of what I've just said, I hope you get well soon though!

Loving you and missing you lots!

Will You... Or Won't You?

I was just thinking...

You know how we always talk about my waiting for you? And you always tell me that it's not fair that I have to wait for you for such a long time. And I always say I'll wait for you because it's worth it. But you'll say it's only worth it if we end up together in the future. To me, it's worth it whether or not we end up together.

But now the question that I've been wondering about today is... Will you wait for me? I just realised that you'll be graduating in 2014. But by that time, I'll still be bonded with the government and working as a teacher here and you'll most likely be back in Singapore, starting your new job. By then, my wait would've been "over" because you'll be back (in this region and time zone). Things will, hopefully, be much easier for us as it'll not be as difficult for us to get in touch or see each other.

So now the question remains... Will you wait for me to be with you in Singapore when you've graduated while I'm still bonded and working as a teacher here in the next few years?

I know this is all hypothetical BUT still very possible and that's why I would like to know what your answer is and also your thoughts on it.

Loving you lots xox

Happy New Year!

A new year, a new beginning!

All the sadness, tears, pain and sorrows to be left behind. May we put what's bad and what's in the past behind us. And keep all the good times that we have with us in our memories. Let's look forward to a new, fresh and wonderful start in love and life together!

May the year 2012 bring us all love, joy and happiness! May all our dreams and wishes come true!

P/S: I love you very much hubby!