Another gloomy day, which seems to reflect my mood today somehow... Is this what Mr. Ray used to call 'pathetic fallacy'?
He and I had a talk bout our relationship last night. Where is it going? He's not sure. Neither am I. Although both of us seem-ed to want it to last for a very long time... Despite this, there are lots of obstacles in front of us:
What'll happen after we graduate? Will I have to go to Singapore since he won't even consider going to Brunei? Or will it just end after that? If I choose to go with him, what am I to do about my bond with the Brunei government since I'm under scholarship? Will I then have to pay it all back? Or should I just stay and be a teacher? If I do, will he wait for me? It'll be most likely that he won't despite saying that he loves me.
Should we hope for our relationship to work out like it did for Sharon's sister and her boyfriend? Or should we just keep going and cherish our moments together knowing that it will soon end after we graduate like what Vanessa and Mark are doing? Or should we just go with the flow and hope for the best like what Sharon and Simon are doing?
I really don't know what to do anymore... I'm feeling so lost in this relationship now. I know it's all mushy-gushy stuff bout the future and I probably shouldn't even be thinking bout it since we're all still young and studying... But then again, if you love someone that much, don't you just wish that you could be with them, always?
I know that the saying goes "If you love them, let them go" but what if I don't want to let him go?
He and I had a talk bout our relationship last night. Where is it going? He's not sure. Neither am I. Although both of us seem-ed to want it to last for a very long time... Despite this, there are lots of obstacles in front of us:
What'll happen after we graduate? Will I have to go to Singapore since he won't even consider going to Brunei? Or will it just end after that? If I choose to go with him, what am I to do about my bond with the Brunei government since I'm under scholarship? Will I then have to pay it all back? Or should I just stay and be a teacher? If I do, will he wait for me? It'll be most likely that he won't despite saying that he loves me.
Should we hope for our relationship to work out like it did for Sharon's sister and her boyfriend? Or should we just keep going and cherish our moments together knowing that it will soon end after we graduate like what Vanessa and Mark are doing? Or should we just go with the flow and hope for the best like what Sharon and Simon are doing?
I really don't know what to do anymore... I'm feeling so lost in this relationship now. I know it's all mushy-gushy stuff bout the future and I probably shouldn't even be thinking bout it since we're all still young and studying... But then again, if you love someone that much, don't you just wish that you could be with them, always?
I know that the saying goes "If you love them, let them go" but what if I don't want to let him go?
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