Hold Me Close In Your Warm Embrace

February - The Summary of January

2012-02-01T14:20:00.004Z

Whoa, it's already February?! Time sure goes by quickly.

It has been a rather hectic, well, more like chaotic month at work. Being in a new school is so different especially since things seem to be rather disorganised. Some teachers, including myself, have not got proper workstation yet. Apparently, the workstations that they previously ordered were too flimsy and so had to be rejected and new orders were made.

Timetable changes will be distributed to all teachers tomorrow. I've got 27 periods in total. I was told that we're not supposed to teach more than 24 periods. So I might ask the timetabling unit to drop one of my classes which will make my total to 21 periods. But then again, it may be unfair to other teachers if I do so. To change or not to change? - that is the question.

Anyway, good news is... I've been made Head of Broadway, one of the co-curricular activities offered by the school! Yay! To be honest, I feel honoured and important and I like it! And to add to it, I'm also part of the school's HRD department. No, we don't recruit teachers but instead, we analyse their performances in school. And the thing is that, I'm still a new teacher with only one year of teaching experience! Who am I to analyse other teachers, right? But rest assured, as long as the teachers attend meetings, functions, etc and meet the "staying back in school for at least three times a week" quota, they'll be fine. That means I've got to set an example as well otherwise I'll get complaints up my arse!

Anyhoos, I've just gone to the Labour Department and the Ministry of Education to do some clarification. I've been planning to, hopefully, do my Masters in Teaching in January 2013. All these while, I've been reluctant to apply under in-service because I was always informed that there will be at least 3 to 5 years bond with the government... Now what I found out yesterday when I went to the University is that, there's no more bond attached to in-service!! Yay!! The person I asked from the Ministry of Education confirmed this while the lady from the Labour Department said there's still a bond attached. At least that's 2 out of 3. So I'm gonna go back to the lady to clarify things again just to make sure I got things right. Cos these things matter to me...

P/S: Not that I don't wanna work for the government, just that I've got other plans after my bond... Fingers crossed that all things will work out well! *Crosses fingers*

One Year Down, Four More To Go

2012-01-11T14:27:00.004Z

Today is the first anniversary of my job as a teacher.

I can't believe how quickly time has gone by. To think that, all my life, teaching was the last thing I've ever wanted to do. Now, it has become one of the most enjoyable jobs I've ever had in my working life. Yes, it can sometimes be quite tough when faced with challenges. For example, when you can't get your students' attention; when you're lost when you're teaching; when you run of out ideas on how to explain a certain topic to your students; when you've taught your students something that they understood three weeks ago but have now forgotten. But all these are nothing compared to when just ONE of your students show some improvement in terms of their written work and/or oral skills in class. The feeling you get when you've achieved something, no matter how big or small, is truly rewarding. And it just puts a smile on your face.

But even though time is going by as quickly as it is, it's not going quick enough for when the day comes until I get to hold you again in my arms. Today is the fifteenth day since I've left UK. And hundreds of days more until I see you again... See you again soon, hubby.

*bao bao*

p/s: In spite of this, I would love to be a housewife to take care of the ones I love someday.

I Won't Give Up On Us

2012-01-10T18:50:00.002Z

"I Won't Give Up" by Jason Mraz

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Wake Up Call

2012-01-06T08:26:00.004Z

Dearest hubby Andrew,

I just had a huge wake up call this morning after wishing you good night.

I went through our texts on my phone again as I sometimes do when I miss you a lot. I read through all the sweet messages that we sent to each other when we were together and when we were apart. But as I was going through them, I realised something when I was reading the texts that I sent you: You were right! I snap at you too often for the littlest things. Sometimes without even realising it. And I just want to say how sorry I am for that. I really am truly sorry for the way that I have behaved, acted and reacted.

I always thought that I was a good and loving girlfriend to you but apparently I was wrong. I was insensitive to your feelings. Only now do I realise how tolerant and patient you've been with me all these years. You are sweet and loving and caring and all I seem to have done is complain. I always thought I appreciated what you did for me, which I do, but it's clear to me now how I've actually under-appreciated you and what you've done for me all these while.

Reading those texts again was really a huge slap in my face. It is no wonder you ended things with me earlier last year and wanted to do the same again the night before I left. I now understand why you had the doubts that you had or perhaps still have. So all I can do now is hope. Hope that you can give us a chance to prove to you that I can be a better girlfriend to you. Hope that I will be able to change, not for you but for myself if I ever want us to be truly happy again - just so you know, I'm happiest when I'm with you.

I want us to be happy again and I want to see you smile again. I want to know that I am still precious to you. I want to know that you're always thinking of me and that I'm hardly out of your mind. I want to know that I'm still worth every second of your time because... You are precious to me. I'm always thinking about you and you're hardly ever out of my mind. And you're definitely worth every second of my time...

Once again, I am really, really truly sorry for everything. For the hurt and pain and everything else that I've caused you.

From your honey who will always love you no matter what,
Priscilla.

Always on My Mind

2012-01-04T16:29:00.000Z

You know how there's always that one person on your mind before you go to sleep or when you wake up?

To me, that person has always been you in the last few years.

Thinking of you...

Loving you and missing you lots, hubby! xox

Lovesick

2012-01-03T14:47:00.001Z

Hubby, maybe it's a good thing you're feeling sick. Hehe... Here's why I'm saying this:

When I was sick for a long time last year after we visited each other during the holidays, one of my colleagues told me that it's because I miss you very much. He said that when two people who are in love have been spending a lot of time together and then one (or both) of them falls sick when they get separated, it means that the he or she misses the one that he or she loves very much.

Since I've just visited you for Christmas holidays and you've fallen ill when I left... That means you miss me very much! Hehe... =)

I know this is just a myth/superstition but I like this interpretation of why you're not feeling well.

In spite of what I've just said, I hope you get well soon though!

Loving you and missing you lots!

Will You... Or Won't You?

2012-01-02T12:47:00.003Z

I was just thinking...

You know how we always talk about my waiting for you? And you always tell me that it's not fair that I have to wait for you for such a long time. And I always say I'll wait for you because it's worth it. But you'll say it's only worth it if we end up together in the future. To me, it's worth it whether or not we end up together.

But now the question that I've been wondering about today is... Will you wait for me? I just realised that you'll be graduating in 2014. But by that time, I'll still be bonded with the government and working as a teacher here and you'll most likely be back in Singapore, starting your new job. By then, my wait would've been "over" because you'll be back (in this region and time zone). Things will, hopefully, be much easier for us as it'll not be as difficult for us to get in touch or see each other.

So now the question remains... Will you wait for me to be with you in Singapore when you've graduated while I'm still bonded and working as a teacher here in the next few years?

I know this is all hypothetical BUT still very possible and that's why I would like to know what your answer is and also your thoughts on it.

Loving you lots xox

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T00:06:00.000Z

A new year, a new beginning!

All the sadness, tears, pain and sorrows to be left behind. May we put what's bad and what's in the past behind us. And keep all the good times that we have with us in our memories. Let's look forward to a new, fresh and wonderful start in love and life together!

May the year 2012 bring us all love, joy and happiness! May all our dreams and wishes come true!

P/S: I love you very much hubby!

Wish You Were Here

2011-12-31T22:07:00.000Z

I'm wishing that you are here by my side. Kissing me lovingly on my forehead and holding me close in your warm embrace...

Missing you and loving you.

A Hole in My Heart

2011-12-31T21:53:00.005Z

When we broke up a few months back, you left a hole in my heart. But you mended my heart and healed it when you told me you wanted to be with me again. When you were certain of what you wanted. The tugging feeling in my heart was gone. My heart was whole again as I felt truly loved and wanted by you. And I was as happy as I ever could be.

But now, even though we're still together, the tugging has come back again. Because you're not certain now. You're not certain of what you want - of whether you want to be with me, I mean, really be with me... yet again. And I think, until you are certain, I won't feel that my heart has completely healed this time around even though we're not broken up. I won't feel like we're truly together even when we are. Even though you still love me. Even though you're still in love with me. My heart will still have a hole in it until you truly want to be together again.

I hope that in time, your answer will be "yes" you still want to be together rather than "not sure". So, when you are certain of what you want again... And when you feel that you truly want to be together, can you please let me know?

Like I said before, you may call me stupid or silly but... I'll be here waiting for you.

Final Day - End of Year 2011

2011-12-31T15:46:00.001Z

It's the final day of the year...

How I really wish that I can spend this day with you. To be there with you to celebrate the coming of the new year. And also to take care of you.

My new year resolution: No more tears and to lead a happier life each day.

Rainy Nights

2011-12-30T14:43:00.000Z

I really don't like sleeping alone when it's raining heavily outside. It makes me miss you so much. I need you here to cuddle beside me and hold me to sleep...

*bao bao*

To Me You Are Perfect

2011-12-29T14:21:00.000Z

No matter where our relationship may go in the future, even if we may end up in our own separate ways, I just want you to know that I'll always love you. Because you are the love of my life.

Loving You Truly, Madly, Deeply

2011-12-29T14:07:00.000Z

You've captured my heart and made me fell head-over-heels in love with you. My heart is set on you. There's no one else I'd rather be with. No one else I'd rather love. No one else I'd rather be in love with. Except you. And only you.

You may have broken my heart once or twice but that does not matter to me. With time, I'll be able to heal. As long as you are still in love with me and still want to be with me... That's all that matters to me now. To be able to be with you. To be able to care for you. To support you. To see and hear you laugh. To be there when you need me.

I know I've got a temper and I've made mistakes. But I have to say that I have mellowed down, don't you think so? We've both made mistakes and we'll probably make some more mistakes in the future. But isn't that what a relationship is about? We make mistakes and we learn from it. We learn how to be better for each other. For better or for worse.

You may have your doubts and insecurities but so do I. At least I don't use them as reasons to end our relationship. I merely see them as obstacles that we have to go through to keep our relationship going. Unless your feelings for me have completely changed or gone, I don't see why we can't make things work so that we can have a future together. You had time to think about this before and you agreed to give us another try. You yourself said you know what you want - that you love me and want to be with me and that there is a possibility of a future together. I know, no promises. But a possibility is good enough for me.

24 Today!

2011-10-16T15:24:00.000+01:00

Just turned 24 and I'm missing you! Love you =D

Just So You Know...

2011-10-12T07:58:00.000+01:00

I wanna be the first thing on your mind in the morning
The one who knows it's you when you're calling
Girl who dries your tears when they are falling
I wanna know you like that.

I wanna be the one you run to when things get crazy
Only girl that you call your baby
One who's always got your back
I wanna know you like that.

5 More Days to D-Day...

2011-10-11T09:12:00.002+01:00

... or should I say B-Day?

Getting a year older soon. But will I be any wiser?

Where For Art Thou, December?

2011-09-18T15:24:00.000+01:00

I'm missing you very much. December is not here soon enough.

Two and a half months until I'm in UK. Three more months until I get to see you again.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!

2011-09-12T12:48:00.000+01:00

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone! =)

I Want You

2011-09-09T15:39:00.001+01:00

I don't want a perfect person, I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me more than anything.

I Miss You So Bad

2011-09-05T08:36:00.001+01:00

Jet Lag by Simple Plan featuring Natasha Bedingfield

(So jet lagged)

What time is it where you are?
(I miss you more than anything)
I'm back at home, you feel so far
(Waiting for the phone to ring)
It's getting lonely living upside down
I don't even want to be in this town
Trying to figure out, the time zone's making me crazy

You say good morning when it's midnight
Going out of my head, alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad, I miss you so bad
And my heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Is so jet lagged

What time is it where you are?
(Five more days and I'll be home)
I keep your picture in my car
(I hate the thought of you alone)
I've been keeping busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Trying to figure out, the time zone's making me crazy

You say good morning when it's midnight
Going out of my head, alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad, I miss you so bad
And my heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Is so jet lagged

I miss you so bad
(I miss you so bad)
I miss you so bad
(I miss you so bad)
I miss you so bad
(I wanna share your horizon)
I miss you so bad
And see the same sun rising
I miss you so bad
Until the hour hand is back to when you're home with me

You say good morning when it's midnight
Going out of my head, alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad, I miss when you say

Good morning when it's midnight
Going out of my head, alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad, I miss you so bad

And my heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Heart heart, heart is so jet lagged
Is so jet lagged

(Is so jet lagged)

LDR

2011-09-02T14:36:00.002+01:00

Long-distance relationship is not easy when you have too much time in your hands with nothing to do and too much to think about...

Missing you lots!

I've Had The Time Of My Life! =D

2011-08-30T14:19:00.004+01:00

Boy: Now I've had the time of my life
No, I never felt like this before
Yes, I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

Girl: 'Cause I've had the time of my life
And I owe it all to you

Boy: I've been waiting for so long
Now I've finally found someone
To stand by me

Girl: We saw the writing on the wall
As we felt this magical fantasy

Both: Now with passion in our eyes
There's no way we could disguise it secretly
So we take each other's hand
'Cause we seem to understand the urgency

Boy: Just remember

Girl: You're the one thing

Boy: I can't get enough of

Girl: So I'll tell you something

Both: This could be love because

(CHORUS)
Both: I've had the time of my life
No, I never felt this way before
Yes, I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you
'Cause I've had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
'Til I found the truth
And I owe it all to you

Girl: With my body and soul
I want you more than you'll ever know

Boy: So we'll just let it go
Don't be afraid to lose control

Girl: Yes, I know what's on your mind
When you say:
"Stay with me tonight."

Boy: Just remember
You're the one thing

Girl: I can't get enough of

Boy: So I'll tell you something

Both: This could be love because

(CHORUS)
Both: 'Cause I had the time of my life
No, I've never felt this way before
Yes, I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you
'Cause I've had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
Till I found the truth
And I owe it all to you

*Instrumental*

Boy: Now I've had the time of my life
No, I never felt this way before

(Girl: Never felt this way)

Boy: Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

Both: 'Cause I had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
Till I've found the truth
And I owe it all to you

Both: 'Cause I've had the time of my life
No, I've never felt this way before
Yes, I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

"A Kiss" by Andrew Lee

2011-08-04T13:21:00.001+01:00

A Kiss

by Andrew Lee

I blow a kiss

From here to there

With it contains

My love and hugs

For now this message

Shall suffice

For not long

We will kiss

Who Am I to You?

2011-07-15T06:20:00.000+01:00

Am I your girlfriend or just a girl friend?

If I am your girlfriend, then...

Why did you not come early to my graduation and take more pictures for/of me but did so for your friends like Jacqueline, Yuhang and Yuhang's girlfriend? And the thing is that, you barely even know them except for Yuhang.

Why did you go to the little museum in Bangor with Tammy but not with me when I asked you to?

Why did you not go to the church with me when I've asked you so many times during the first year in uni but you did when Shawn invited you?

Why were you able to talk about intimate things (and have a laugh about it) with Sherry and some of your friends but not with me? Even when you did, why were you uncomfortable with/about it?

Maybe... I'm just a girl friend to you...?

"Missing Items"

2011-06-24T16:37:00.000+01:00

As the saying goes: Yat fong ye fong, ga chak lan fong.

Here's a list of items that are "missing" from my room:

- one white ipod classic.
- one Nokia 8750 with a blue cover which has a silver flower on the back that pops up.
- one wooden box which contains about 5-10 watches which I've collected since primary school. This includes a silver Mickey Mouse watch, one plastic monochrome watch with a broken strap, possibly a brown leather strapped Garfield watch and one white (which has turned rather yellow) Baby-G watch. Something like "Yeng. Good Luck. Liza." is written on the red interior of the box.
- a collection of coins and some monies (a few BND$20 notes, one to a possible three BND$100 notes and a few SGD$5 and $10 notes).

If only CSI kits or fingerprint kits and software are easily available. And I think electronic items should have an anti-theft tracker or something like that.

On This Day, God Wants You to Know...

2011-06-22T14:05:00.001+01:00

That you have so many gifts! - use them. God has given you so many gifts to sow love and to give hope, to shine light and to spread joy. Abundant gifts. Use them. Give to yourself and give to others. There is an endless spring where they come from.

Never Let Go

2011-06-21T11:07:00.000+01:00

She won. And I lost.

Because you all sided with her when you defended her.

I lost when you asked me to stop pursuing the truth. You never pursue the truth. At least, not as far as I thought you would.

You let her go. You're making a mistake by letting her go. She'll make the same mistakes again and she'll never learn. She'll never admit her mistakes. She'll never admit her wrongdoings. Because you've let her go. Not just once. Not twice. Not even thrice. But many, many times before. There's no point in me saying anything else except... She's not a part of me. Or even a part of my life anymore. And she'll never be... Until she finally admits it.

I'll never forget this moment. This moment when you've turned your back on me. I'll never let this go.

Koala :)

2011-05-25T15:05:00.000+01:00

Missing your hugs!

Happy 25th Birthday, Andrew!

2011-05-21T19:55:00.001+01:00

Happy 25th Birthday! Hope you have an amazing one this year :)

Beautifully Imperfect

2011-05-15T16:04:00.000+01:00

Your little imperfections make you perfect for me. You are beautifully imperfect to me and I love you for it.

What You Said

2011-05-14T13:38:00.000+01:00

I like the fact that you referred to us as "little husband and wife."

Day 90

2011-05-11T15:14:00.001+01:00

Left hanging in the dark...
In the shadows of your light.

Beginning of a Fairy Tale

2011-05-10T12:50:00.000+01:00

Romeo found his Juliet. Prince Charming found his princess.

But the fairy tale does not begin here.

Second Chances

2011-05-08T13:07:00.000+01:00

Second chances are hard to come by. So here's hoping that we'll make it work this time around :)

Ready. Set. Go!

Day 70

2011-04-21T16:01:00.000+01:00

Love is the seed of all hope.
It is the enticement
to trust, to risk,
to try, to go on.

- Gloria Gaither.

Patience

2011-04-14T16:20:00.000+01:00

You can have the time - as much time as you need - to think things through and decide what you want. I'll just have to be patient and see how things go.

Your mom was right. I shouldn't think too much.

Hope

2011-04-13T16:20:00.001+01:00

I asked you how much longer I've got to wait. And you told me to give you until end of this month. So I'll wait because a part of me really wants to know what your decision will be. But a part of me wishes that I didn't ask you to give me an answer so soon - in case what you'll tell me isn't what I want to hear.

All I can do now is hope. Hope that you feel the way I feel for you. Hope that you feel the way I feel about us. Hope that what I want is what you want. Hope that you'll want to be with me as much as I want to be with you. Because, in spite of whatever doubts you may have, I can see us together. And I hope that you can see that too.

I'm just a girl who is still very much in love... with you.

Day 60

2011-04-11T14:44:00.000+01:00

What greater thing is there for two human souls
than to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other...
to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories.
- George Eliot.

Love was to his impassioned soul,
not a mere part of its existence,
but the whole,
the very life-breath of his heart.
- Thomas Moore.

The Waiting Game

2011-04-10T15:02:00.001+01:00

I said I miss you... and you told me you miss me too.
I love you but do you love me?
I was in love with you and I still am.
Were you ever in love with me
and will you ever be?

I know I said I'll wait for you but...
How long should I wait?
I hate this waiting game.
It kills me not knowing
what your thoughts are.

I'll still wait for you
That I am sure of.
What I need to know is that -
Will you want me back
and will there ever be US again?

Wondering...

2011-04-07T11:48:00.003+01:00

Is it okay that I still miss you so much?

And do you miss me too?

*sigh*

Thinking of You

2011-04-03T13:11:00.000+01:00

All I could think of was you and the army stories you've told me while watching Every Singaporean Son during dinner.

A Kiss to Build a Dream On

2011-04-03T07:18:00.000+01:00

By Louis Armstrong

Give me a kiss to build a dream on
And my imagination will thrive upon that kiss
Sweetheart, I ask no more than this
A kiss to build a dream on

Give me a kiss before you leave me
And my imagination will feed my hungry heart
Leave me one thing before we part
A kiss to build a dream on

And when I'm alone with my fancies, I'll be with you
Weaving romances, making believe they're true

Oh, give me your lips for just a moment
And my imagination will make that moment live
Give me what you alone can give
A kiss to build a dream on

When I'm alone with my fancies, I'll be with you
Weaving romances, making believe they're true

Oh, give me lips for just a moment
And my imagination will make that moment live
Oh, give me what you alone can give
A kiss to build a dream on

Day 50

2011-04-01T14:22:00.000+01:00

And counting...

"Love comforteth like sunshine after rain." - William Shakespeare

But if there is no love, what should comfort me after the rain?

Hero

2011-03-29T11:29:00.000+01:00

Sometimes you have to be your own hero because sometimes the people you can't live without can live without you.

Past Memories

2011-03-27T15:12:00.000+01:00

Looking through our pictures... Reminiscing on our past...

I miss you. Always.

A Tender Warrior

2011-03-27T13:13:00.000+01:00

A real man is kind.
A real man is caring.
A real man walks away from silly macho fights.
A real man helps his wife.
A real man helps his kids when they are sick.
A real man doesn't run from his problems.
A real man sticks to his word and keeps his promises.
A real man is honest.
A real man is not in trouble with the law.

It's one lonely boy's vision of a man who stays. A man who is both an authority and under authority.

It's a vision of a tender warrior.

By Stu Weber.

(Extract taken from leaflet of St. Andrew's Church's first service on 27th March 2011.)

Terrified

2011-03-25T16:05:00.006Z

Terrified by Katharine McPhee feat. Zachary Levi

Lyrics by Kara DioGuardi

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world
Full of wrong
You're the thing that's right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other side

You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life

This could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh, I only mean it
'Cause it's true
Oh, so don't you doubt
What I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up
And holds me close
Whenever I'm without you

You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life, life
In my only life

Sentiasa Menunggu...

2011-03-24T00:36:00.004Z

Awak tahu tak? Saya tidak pernah berhenti mencintai mu selama ini. Setiap hari, saya merindui pelukan mu dan ciuman mu. Walaupun awak telah melukai hati ku ini, saya tetap mencintai mu.

Saya harap awak akan faham yang saya tidak akan menyalahkan awak kerana keputusan mu untuk memutuskan perhubungan kami walaupun betapa sakit hati ku ini. Tetapi saya juga harap awak akan faham bahawa saya akan memerlukan masa untuk sembuh dari luka yang mendalam ini.

Saya sangat menghargai yang awak masih ada perasaan terhadap saya dan juga merindui saya. Tetapi semua ini tidak cukup bagi ku. Ini kerana saya, pada masa ini, tidak dapat melepaskan mu dan juga kerana saya sentiasa berharap awak akan kembali kepada sisi ku. Mahupun awak telah memberitahu saya bahawa awak juga mahu memulakan hubungan kami semula, ini juga tidak cukup kerana cinta mu terhadap ku tidak sekukuh cinta ku terhadap mu. Saya sanggup mengambil risiko yang awak tidak sudi.

Meskipun ini, saya sentiasa mencintai mu dan merindui mu. Saya juga sentiasa berharap awak akan kembali ke sisi ku walaupun saya harus menunggu mu...

Day 41

2011-03-23T07:07:00.001Z

For I do love you...

as the dew loves the flowers;

as the birds love the sunshine;

as the wavelets love the breeze.

- Mark Twain.

Head vs Heart

2011-03-18T01:17:00.003Z

What should I do when my head tells me to move on while my heart wants me to stay and wait?

Love?

2011-03-07T13:03:00.002Z

The person you love most, will hurt you the most...

From Then Til Now

2011-03-03T13:02:00.000Z

21 days...

Just a Thought

2011-02-25T15:03:00.001Z

I'm still missing you... LOTS.

Brand New Eyes

2011-02-20T15:06:00.002Z

I was finally back in church today after a very long period of absence. My dad was really happy about it and he was telling his friends how he had a feeling about this.

Usually my dad would get up at about 6ish in the morning to get ready for the first service which starts at 7.45am. He got up at his usual time today but in the end decided to head back to bed. Apparently he had a weird feeling then. I heard him get up again at around 9.30am and so I asked if he was going to the second service. He said yes and asked me why. I said I wanted to go too and told him to wait for me...

We arrived at church just in time to catch the first worship song at about five past ten. The sermon today was on Evangelism and how and why to spread the Good News. The sermon ended at 12.10pm and my dad and I headed to Seri area for lunch. After lunch, my dad made a call to his friend. He then told him the story of how he had a feeling that something was telling him to go to the second service today instead of the first. He sounded really happy. And I smiled to myself...

No More "IFs"

2011-02-20T08:46:00.002Z

If you want to, I'll come looking for you.
If you think it'll work out, shouldn't we start?
If you like me, tell me no more "IFs"
Just do what you want.

- Source unknown.

Happy Part II

2011-02-18T12:10:00.002Z

Seeing you smile makes me smile;
seeing you laugh makes me laugh;
seeing you happy makes me happy;
especially when you're with me...

Happy

2011-02-18T03:46:00.004Z

24th November 2010 at 04:59: I don't wanna spend another day without you... I just wanna be the one who makes you happy...

Simple things from you like saying "I love you", "I miss you", "Thinking of you" or a hug or a kiss from you each day is more than enough to make me happy...

The Difference Between Love and Romance: Grown Up Love

2011-02-16T06:00:00.005Z

"Love is the one power that awakens the ego to the existence of something outside itself, outside its empire, outside its security."

Love, in other words, is transcending the ego to connect with another.

Johnson writes: "The task of salvaging love from the swamps of romance begins with a shift of vision—. Real relatedness between two people is experienced in the small tasks they do together: the quiet conversation when the day's upheavals are at rest, the soft word of understanding, the daily companionship, the encouragement offered in a difficult moment, the small gift when least expected, the spontaneous gesture of love."

We have conceptual differences. We are conceptual differences. But isn't that where love begins, in the difference—the otherness—that makes love possible, and necessary?

As Robert Heinlein told us in his 1961 novel Stranger in a Strange Land: "Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

From http://www.oprah.com/relationships/The-Difference-Between-Love-and-Romance/2

Happy 46th Birthday, Pa!

2011-01-19T14:30:00.003Z

Wishing you a Happy 46th Birthday, Pa!

May all your dreams and wishes come true =D

Dinner at 2 A.M.

2011-01-15T18:20:00.001Z

Having my dinner at 2 in the morning. Tsk tsk tsk. And now my tongue and mouth are itching from eating prawns...

Apologies

2011-01-15T17:59:00.003Z

I'm sorry for the lack of update. This has been a rather hectic week for me as I'm still trying to get my head around my new job as a teacher. I will try to update about my week in the next few days.

Toodles!

Last Day at Work

2011-01-07T15:07:00.003Z

Today was my last day of work at ___. Although I've known all along that this job was just temporary and that I'll be leaving it soon, I can't help but feel sad. I've quite enjoyed myself while working at the company with my uncle and just two other staff at the office - even though I spent most of the time alone as they were often out meeting up with customers and working at job sites. But I think, most of all, I'll miss the time working there with my uncle.

Thank you so much for your guidance and for being nice to me during my short time there. I wish you all the best :)

Inpirational Quote - Maya Angelou

2011-01-06T01:57:00.000Z

While one may encounter many defeats, one must not be defeated.

Maya Angelou

Stay on the Left Lane!

2011-01-06T00:08:00.004Z

It's bad enough that truckers/lorry drivers often drive way over their speed limit. By this, I especially mean those with both their signal lights on top blinking. But to stay on the RIGHT LANE too when driving really slowly on what's supposed to be the fast lane for other drivers? Please!

Moreover, a lot of them don't even follow the health and safety regulations. I have to admit that I don't really know what they are but I think it's just plain common sense to have their load securely covered up. Is it not dangerous enough that the trucks are loaded with pebbles, bricks, furniture, electronic items, etc? But to not secure or cover them up properly to prevent the load from falling off the back of their trucks so as to avoid accidents and/or harm to others?

I'm saying this from personal experience as I've seen bricks falling off the trucks onto the road, sand flying off into the air, pebbles spurting off when the truckers are driving fast, etc. Perhaps the only time I've seen the trucks have their load covered up is when it rains, heavily. Otherwise, they often pose as a threat to other drivers.

Good News

2011-01-05T14:44:00.005Z

I was finally out with Anisah last night after 5 months of being home. And to add to that, it was only my second outing with friends since after Vanessa, Sharon and Ada left for UK in September. Sad life, I know! I guess it's mainly because I've been feeling lazy to drive out as well.

We (Anisah, Ali [Anis's boyfriend], Adeq and I) hung out at this I-don't-remember-the-name cafe which is located at Madang Complex. It was good to finally be able to catch up with her. However, I felt that we could've chatted more if not for Soul Plane showing on Star Movies. Good news from her family: Her elder brother is getting married soon. Congratulations!

I feel like we're so grown up now that we're working or soon-to-be-working adults. Anisah will be doing her Teaching Practice at Sayyidina Hassan Secondary School (Did I get this right? I keep forgetting even though you've reminded me repeatedly what the name of the school is!) on 17th January. Adeq is a helicopter pilot with Shell - how cool is this?! While I, on the other hand, will be an English teacher at STPRI commencing this 11th of January. I'm so excited and yet so terrified! Any advice on what to do and what not to do, etc?

Even though it is good news that I've now got a job with the Ministry of Education, I'm kind of hoping that I'll get a call from the Ministry of ___. It would be such a dream come true for me if I could get that job albeit being more stressful than what teaching may be like.

Another good news - I'll be getting a new car soon! I've confirmed my booking with the dealer and have signed for hire purchase with HSBC. Everything is now settled except for the arrival of the car. Then the pocket draining shall start in early March for SEVEN years to go! Wohoo!

I guess you can say that all good things come with a cost...

Happy New Year, 2011!

2010-12-31T17:58:00.002Z

Happy New Year! :D

Welcome Year 2011, Year of the Rabbit!

May this year be filled with wonderful blessings of

Good Health and Fortune,

Success and Longevity,

Joy and Happiness to all!

New Year, New Beginnings and New Year's Resolution.

Countdown

2010-12-28T15:24:00.002Z

Countdown to New Year's Day: 4 days!

Feeling really happy today as it has been a really good day! Good news all the way! :D

Countdown

2010-12-28T15:24:00.001Z

Countdown to New Year's Day: 4 days!

Feeling really happy today as it has been a really good day! :D

Countdown

2010-12-26T17:04:00.001Z

Countdown to New Year's Day: 5 days!

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-24T16:27:00.003Z

Merry Christmas!

Wishing you all happy holidays! XD

Also, Happy 37th Month Anniversary, Hubby!

I love you and I miss you very much!

A Gift from You :D

2010-12-21T15:04:00.002Z

A locket from you stays near my heart, so you'll be close to me even though we're far apart <3

I Love You

2010-12-21T06:10:00.008Z

Yay, the parcel Andrew sent me has finally arrived! I was so excited when I saw the card from the post office asking me to collect the parcel, laying on top of the drawers. So, I finished my lunch really quickly today and asked my Dad to send me to the post office.

Having arrived at the post office, I signed my name and gave the staff my card and he proceeded to collecting my parcel from where they keep all the other parcels. *waited excitedly* And then came the man with a parcel in his arms, it was a large bulky envelope with my name on it in Andrew's handwriting.

I had to bring my parcel to the custom's table and then carefully opened my parcel. Inside was a Limited Edition Audrey Hepburn calendar, a H.Samuel paper bag and... a H.Samuel gift box! I was hesitant in opening the box because I promised Andrew that I'll open it when we're on Skype so that he'll be able to see my reaction when I open it. I almost cried right there and then when I opened the box. There it was on the white cushion of the inside the box, a heart-shaped locket... with our pictures in it! :D

I couldn't wait to get home and go online so that I can thank him and tell him how much I love him and miss him!

Thank you very much for the gift Hubby. It means a lot to me since it symbolises our 3 years together and also because it's a gift from you for my birthday :D Muackz!

I love you very much Hubby! And I miss you very much too!

Just for You

2010-12-20T13:02:00.010Z

Andrew, this is for you...

Cos you are the brightest star,

I'm in love with who you are,

And you are the brightest star,

I'm lost without your love.

You and me is what matters most,

It's not the intimacy that brings me

Closer to you...

* 'White Lines and Red Lights' by Between the Trees *

Inspirational Quote

2010-12-20T06:37:00.003Z

Faith is what makes life bearable, with all its tragedies and ambiguities and sudden, startling joys.

Madeleine L'Engle.

Countdown

2010-12-20T03:00:00.002Z

Countdown to Christmas & 37th Monthsary: 5 Days!

Countdown to New Year's Day: 12 Days.

:D

:D

2010-12-19T16:27:00.003Z

Hubby, I'm so happy that I got to see you and chat with you last night for almost two hours on Skype :)

Distance Makes the Heart Grows Fonder

2010-12-17T01:42:00.004Z

Distance Makes the Heart Grows Fonder... It really does.

The person who thought of this, these words, must have really liked and/or loved the person from whom he or she was apart from. And I can understand how the person must've felt at the time because I feel the same way now.

Being so far away from Andrew has really been difficult for me. It has now been about five months since we were last together and I miss him very much! And I hope he feels the same way for me too.

Even when we were both still studying and living in Bangor, it was tough for me whenever he or I had been away for just a day. But knowing that we will see each other again soon made it alright for me. But in this case, since he's still studying in the UK while I'm here in Brunei, we don't know when we'll get to be together again. Although I really hope that it'll just be a few more months from now since he'll be back in Singapore for his summer break; either I take a flight out to visit him in Singapore, or better yet, he'll come over to visit me in Brunei. Can't wait!

Loving you and missing you lots, hubby! :D

Updates on Car Trouble

2010-12-16T06:01:00.007Z

My dad told me that the cost of fixing the car was over BND$200! I didn't know that it'll be that expensive to fix the car just cos there was something wrong with the horn... Tsk tsk tsk... Okay, perhaps there were other underlying problems with the car. But still!

F.Y.I, this was not the first time that my Dad had to send the Proton Gen-2 to the workshop. My dad told me that, for the past few years, he had to send the car to the workshop at least once a month because something had gone wrong with it. Apparently, it is VERY COMMON for customers to FREQUENTLY bring in their Proton cars for servicing and repair - at least that's what the people from the workshop told my dad.

So a warning to you all, if you wanna buy a Proton car, buy it at your own risk. The cost of purchasing a Proton may be cheap but I personally do not think it's worth it. I may as well have purchased a slightly more expensive car for its durability and reliability.

Embarrassing Car Trouble

2010-12-16T00:50:00.006Z

I got into work late today. No, it's not cos I got up late. It's because my mom and I had to go to my dad's workplace to switch cars. Why, you may ask?

Cos Proton Gen-2 sucks! Yes, it DOES. My mom was going to drive me to work this morning. The car was fine when she started the engine. However, once my mom drove the car out of the driveway, the car's horn started going off. At first it was just a short burst of honking but the further we drove, the more the car honked. And louder too. It was so embarrassing! This was especially so when we drove by other cars and the drivers just stared at us. Some cars even slowed down and tried to stop by the road side to let our car pass through.

Luckily, my dad's workplace is just a short distance from where we live. So when we arrived, we passed through security. Just as we were doing so, we passed by another car and our horn started honking really loudly. Hearing this, the man driving beside us rolled his window down with this "look" on his face. My mom was quick to roll down the window and explained to the man and the security officers that something was wrong with the car's horn and so he left (without "the look" this time).

As we parked the car at the parking area of my dad's workplace, the car's horn went crazy again. My mom had to switch off the car's engine, forgetting to roll the window back up. So she had to switch the engine back on in order for her to do so. No surprise, the window won't budge! By this time the car gave another honk and more security officers came towards us. And so my mom had to explain yet again that something was wrong with the horn.

My dad arrived at the parking area and tried to check out what was wrong with the car, with the help of one or two of the security officers who were there. My mom and I then drove away so that I could get to work, leaving the lousy car behind for my dad.

And so, I was late for work...

Lasers and Injections

2010-12-15T06:48:00.003Z

I just got back from the hospital and am now at work again. I've just had my third appointment today at 2pm for laser treatment and steroid injection for the keloids on my right ear and left arm.

To those of you who don't know, I've had a huge keloid on my left arm since I was 9 years old as a result of the (MMR?) injection that I received while still in primary school. This is the reason why you'll hardly catch me wearing sleeveless tops. And in 2007, another keloid developed on the top part of my right ear, which grew from pimple-sized to about half the length and width of my pinkie.

When I first made and attended my appointment at RIPAS Hospital about two months ago, I was rather excited. I was excited because after years of having the ugly keloids on my arm and ear, I can finally have them reduced in size in hope that they'll soon disappear or at least fade to a lighter shade. However, I didn't know what I'd put myself into. I was shocked at the amount of pain that I was put into by the treatments I received.

Did you know that laser treatment can actually be very painful? Okay, maybe it was bearable. BUT I had to have MULTIPLE INJECTIONS on my ear after that which made the pain so much worse. And to think that I have a rather high threshold for pain. It's not like having multiple piercings, NO... Nothing close to it.

Initially, the first few "shots" of laser onto my right ear felt alright albeit a little cold. And I thought, "Okay, I don't mind doing this for however long it'll take to shrink my keloids." However, after a few more shots, I started to feel some pain. And when it went on, it became less bearable but still alright. THEN, the jabs came. That's when I felt like "Shyte, I don't think I can continue with this," but still allowed the jabs to keep going. Just so you know, the reason why the treatments hurt so badly is because the keloids (especially the one on my ear) is like really solid. And to quote what the doctor said to the nurse today, "It's like injecting into a solid robot!"

To be honest, I really didn't expect to go through this much pain. I've had steroid injections for my ear before, when I was still in the UK. Each time I went, I felt alright except for feeling a little flushed after but NEVER much pain. Seriously. Which is why I was quite surprised when the jabs hurt and bled so much when I got them here.

And I'm not exaggerating on the amount of pain I went through. The doctors told me that steroid injections ARE meant to be PAINFUL! My previous doctor even told me that some people actually cried from the jabs. I just thank God that the procedure lasts for only a short while while the pain would cease in a few hours or a day at most. At least in my case it does. I've got to say, a Brazilian wax didn't even hurt as much as the injections did!

In spite of my complaints, I'll still continue to visit the doctors to receive the treatments. What can I say except a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do to (try to) look good.

Random Thoughts

2010-12-14T08:07:00.001Z

Current ideas for my dream home would include double French doors, bay windows and a large balcony.

Countdown

2010-12-14T06:22:00.003Z

Countdown to Christmas & 37th Monthsary: 11 Days.

Hello Blog, I'm Back

2010-12-14T05:15:00.008Z

Hello blog,

It has now been more than a year since I last posted. Nevertheless, all's well. I'm now a graduate and am currently working at my uncle's company until the government calls me in for a job with them. I'm really excited and nervous at the same time. Hopefully, I'll get to do the job that I want *fingers crossed*

Meanwhile, all's looking good on the relationship front as well. Andrew and I have just celebrated our 3rd year anniversary! :D I have to admit that I was quite disappointed though as I thought that I'd be able to spend that day with him in the UK. I can't wait to get back when the opportunity comes cos most of the people close to me are still miles away, studying. You know who you are and I miss you all very much!!

Speaking of which, apparently Andrew sent me something via snail mail for our anniversary which was posted around 22nd November. I have yet to receive this. I hope it hasn't gotten lost in transit like my certificate and transcript did when my university tried sending them to me though. I hope that the reason for my not receiving it yet is merely cos of some delay and that it'll get to me soon...

And speaking of mail, what's up with the customs check / officers in Brunei?? I didn't know that they can be such (insert your choice of negative noun here)! My shipment of belongings arrived in October and I was really excited when I saw all the boxes when I got home one evening. But to my horror and disappointment, as I was going through my things, I found my Marc Jacobs Daisy perfume box opened!! How do I know this? It's because I personally sealed each and everyone of my belongings before posting them.

Okay, maybe it isn't that big of a deal to some people since I've already finished my bottle of perfume. The thing is that they took my Marc Jacobs lotions (which were still unused!) that came with the perfume box set along with my other branded perfume bottles albeit most of them were empty!! I was so so so mad! I mean, the nerve?!! Moreover, the Marc Jacobs perfume set was a gift from Andrew for my birthday!!! Thank God I still get to keep my empty Marc Jacobs perfume bottle cos otherwise... Grrrr...!

Yes, I'm petty. I know that and am not afraid to admit it.

A Week After Turning 22

2009-10-22T00:44:00.002+01:00

It's been a long while since I've last updated my blog. I can't see how anyone can keep up with their blogs with daily updates, and some can even update more than once a day too! As for me, I don't see how I can do that and to keep my posts interesting at the same time. As you can see, my blog is rather dull. Even my younger brothers' blogs are much more interesting than mine and one of them's half my age. I'm not good at expressing myself at all (and to think I'll be good at this considering I'm taking English Literature in uni!). Even the most interesting things can appear dull.

Anyway, I've turned 22 last Friday. I didn't do much but I had a great time nonetheless. I had a candlelight dinner specially prepared by my Hubby. Hehe... Dinner was amazing. Great food, great music, great atmosphere. What more can I say? I had a great night :D Thank you Hubby! I love you loads.

So, what've I been up to lately? Well, nothing much except that I've been doing lots of reading for my course, been eating out a lot since I've been rather lazy to cook nowadays, played Little Big Planet on Hubby's PS3... Oh, I've also been learning to play the guitar. It's so difficult though and my fingers have been hurting loads. So far, I've only learned to play a four different chords; learned to strum properly and now I can switch between chords while strumming too. Feeling quite impressed with myself although my progression has been rather slow.

Okay, I'd better get to bed now as it's almost 1am. Good night everyone!

Update

2009-06-02T17:11:00.003+01:00

Wohoo! I'm leaving for Italy in less than 24 hours! =DDD Hehehe... Finally get to go to an European country. *I'm so excited I don't know what else to say bout the trip. Hehehe...*

Anyway, I've recently received my Diana F+ Starter Kit! I love it so so much =D Brought it out on Sunday along with my Fisheye 2 to the pier to take some pictures with Andrew. Will post up the pictures once I got them developed. My God, developing 120 format film is so fudging expensive! It costs about 8pounds without the CD and 15pounds!!! with the CD. Can you believe it? They actually charge 7pounds for it. Gosh...

Oh oh! And I went to Puffin Island on Saturday (was it Saturday? I don't really remember =P) It was a really nice trip to Beaumaris and really worth it. It was only 3pounds for the trip; they provided the coach and they boat out to Puffin Island. Took lotsa pictures of the puffins and the seals. They were so adorable. And the scenery there was amazing.

Anyway, I'll be back home in Brunei in less than a week's time. I'm sooo excited! Gonna go on holiday with my family to Malaysia and Singapore a few days after I get back. Yay! God, I miss the food and my bed, and of course, my family... Hehe... Hmm... I wonder if there are places to develop my 120 format films in Brunei. I'll be so sad if they don't =(

Hmm... I guess that's it for now. Gotta pack my bags. Tata!

Love always!

Happy Birthday Hubby!

2009-05-21T00:06:00.005+01:00

Happy 23rd Birthday, Hubby!

Another year older, another year wiser.

Another year spent together with ME =D

May all your dreams and wishes come true.

May God bless you always with love,

good health and longevity.

May He also guide you with His everlasting presence...

Love you always,

Pris

Devastated over Deadline

2009-04-22T15:33:00.004+01:00

The module choice form is due today and I've just handed it in after my 3pm class. I was shocked when the lecturer told me that the deadline's over cos I thought that we could submit it anytime today by 4pm. And I got really upset when he told me that I might not get the modules that I want. I was on the verge of tears.

Now I'm home in my room and have just checked the school's handbook in my inbox (after Fumi told me that there is an allocated time stated in it). And there it is! IN BOLD LETTERS! This is what is said:

Completed module choice forms must be handed in to the English office (Room 210, 2^nd Floor, New Arts Building) on Wednesday 22 April 2009. In order to ease the pressure on the office please attend at the following times:

Surnames A-H between 9.30 and 10.30

Surnames I-P between 10.30 and 11.30

Surnames Q-Z between 11.30 and 12.30

If you have a class at your assigned time, please hand your form in between 2 and 3.

How can I be so ignorant as to not realise this part of the handbook?! And I know I only have myself to blame for this but I just wish that the lady in the office and the lecturer who was there could have reminded me of it when I was in the office this morning at around 10am...

Nothing else to say for now except tata as I'll be preparing for my 5pm seminar.

One More Week to Italy

2009-04-03T10:38:00.002+01:00

It has been so long since I last blogged. Anyway, I just realised I've received my allowance from the government. Yay! More money to spend. One more week till Italy!

Blood Donation

2009-02-25T12:04:00.007Z

I've been wanting to donate blood ever since I saw my Dad donated when I was 16. At that time I was still too young to donate and the doctor told me that I had to wait till I turn 18. The day I turned 18 came. I went to the hospital a few weeks after my birthday and asked if I could donate. The nurse said yes after I told him that I was 18. Moments later, he asked me to stand on the weighing scale and it read 45kg - I was not heavy enough to donate blood. I was then told that you have to be at least 18 years old and weigh as least 50kg in order to eligible for blood donation, providing you are healthy of course.

Three years later, which is now... I'm 21. I finally got my chance to do what I've always wanted to do - to donate blood. I'm finally old and heavy enough. I don't know why but I felt like laughing when I was typing the previous sentence. Lol. Anyway, yup - I donated blood! And it felt great; it made me feel great to be doing something that can help others. I would like to be a regular blood donor. My Dad and Andrew are regular blood donors and I'd really like to be one too.

The blood donation was held at the University's Powis Hall yesterday. Andrew texted me bout it and so I went to the blood drive at 2:30pm. I filled in a questionnaire about my health and travel history. I waited for bout 2 hours until my name was called. Luckily Janny was there otherwise I would've been bored to death. But then again, it was all worth it for a good cause. So, the nurse called my name and asked me some questions and at a lil past 4pm, I was lying down on the bed, waiting to be pricked. I was then pricked; blood flowed - very slowly! My blood flow is surprisingly slow, I do not know why. There was a guy who was before me, he finished a lot earlier than I did even though he was pricked only about a minute before me. Then there was this other guy who went a few minutes after me; he was done right after me. Their blood flowed really quickly as compared to mine. Could anyone tell me why some people have faster/slower blood flow? I find it rather interesting... Anyway, while I was donating, Janny took some pictures of me... See below.

The nurse was checking the machine as it was beeping.

Smiling for the camera.

The nurse taking the needle out when I was done.

Janny's arm.

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-14T17:46:00.007Z

Happy Valentine's, Andrew!

I love you always! =D

You and Me at Roman Bath

You and Me in my room

You and Me in your Reichel room

You and Me by Ada

Finally, It's Snowing! =D

2009-02-02T10:34:00.004Z

Yay! It was snowing just now.

Andrew texted me at 09:16am and told me that it was snowing. I went to my window and looked out.

Happy Chinese New Year!!

2009-01-26T20:25:00.002Z

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

May the year of the Ox bring you all good health, happiness, prosperity, longevity and success in everything you do. And May God bless you all always with love and peace.

Hope you'll all have an amazingly fantabulous year ahead! =D

Lomographic Fisheye No. 2 Copper Edition!

2009-01-24T16:42:00.002Z

I think of all the Lomographic Fisheye No. 2 cameras that I've checked out so far, I love this copper edition one best! So I think I might actually purchase it online next month... Hehe XD

Freedom!!! XD

2009-01-22T21:24:00.003Z

Exams are finally over - at least for me!! Yay! XD

But now another worry arises - my results. I don't know why, but for every paper I sat for, there's always one question that I find particularly difficult to answer. Now I just hope that I can at least get a third degree in all my papers. And I'll try my very best to make up for my grades in Semester 2. I promise!

Flood in Brunei

2009-01-22T09:44:00.009Z

Yesterday, my brother sent me a link to this website, www.ranoadidas.com. Apparently, very heavy rain occurred on Tuesday night and most of Brunei was flooded. It was reportedly "one of the worst floods in Brunei's history" (from 'The Flood Aftermath' at the aforementioned website). Here are the photos of the flood and its aftermath:

Taken at the tunnel at roundabout.

Car park area had ten feet of water.

Power box underneath the water.

One of the schools being affected by rain.

The flood aftermath.

This morning, when I checked out the site again. This is what I got:

Front page of today's Brunei Times.
(Details of the two victims death can be found at:
www.brudirect.com/DailyInfo/News/Archive/Jan09/22/nite01.htm)
May they rest in peace...

Controlling the traffic flow at the roundabout.

One of the VIPs passing through the roundabout.
(Don't know why they put that caption since the VIPs are not in the picture,
just the policewoman saluting).

All I can say is Thank God my family's alright =D

I Want... Sony PRS-505 Reader Digital Book

2009-01-21T21:19:00.006Z

A new addition to my wishlist this year: Sony PRS-505 Reader Digital Book.

Overview:

The Reader Digital Book holds about 160 eBooks or hundreds more with optional removable memory cards. Its portable size makes it the perfect travel companion, allowing you to read a variety of books whenever and wherever you want. With thousands of eBook titles available at the eBook Store from Sony, you can choose to download new releases, classics and popular book titles as well as view other document formats such as Adobe® PDF10, RTF, TXT, BBeB® and Microsoft® Word. Its long battery life lasts up to 7,500 continuous page turns, and the amazing paper-like screen technology is easy on the eyes. The Reader Digital Book is available in Silver, Dark Blue and Sangria Red.

A 'Tribute' to My Grandfather, Lim Boon Teck

2009-01-20T12:22:00.019Z

Lim Boon Teck. Born on 20th January, 1933, today would've been my grandfather's 66th birthday. But he had passed on on Tuesday, 15th March, 2005. May he rest in peace... Amen!

He has been appearing in my dreams a lot lately for the past week. I'm not sure what it means - if it's supposed to mean anything at all. Is it a sort of sign? I mean, is he trying to tell me something in my dreams or maybe I'm just missing him too much? I'm not sure if "we were close" are the right words but he had always been there for me ever since I was born. And yet, I don't know much (or more like I don't know anything at all) about him. This is all I can remember bout him:

My grandfather was a good man. I don't know much about him but I think he was originally from Tutong. He speaks Malay and Hokkien fluently. I know he used to play either billiards or pool frequently before he got stroke because I found cue sticks in his drawers when we were in our old home at Chempaka Park. He used to drive a white car with maroon interior which was very comfortable. And it had a nice old car smell too. I don't remember what his job was but I know he was really keen on getting better when he got stroke cos he was always exercising every day until he fell down. My parents would get mad at him for that cos falling could have made his situation worse. Oh, and it was really funny when my youngest brother was naughty and my grandfather would go to him with a cane in his hand. And my youngest brother would say "Mai, mai! Wa mai!" ("Don't want, don't want! I don't want!"). My family would just laugh whenever that happened cos my youngest brother just sounded so cute!

I also remember that whenever I got home from school at 12:45pm, my grandfather would be sitting in the living room downstairs, watching TV. And he would pass me the controller so that I could watch the last 15 minutes of Oprah while having lunch. He would get me Yakult, peach yogurt and other things that I liked whenever he got to town on Sunday or when we went for groceries shopping at Hua Ho. He used to help me rub my belly when I had stomachache and placed cold towel (or the thing that you stick to your head when you have a fever) on my head. He also used to rub some green colored Chinese medicine whenever I got bruised.

Usually when I got up in the morning to prepare for school, I would say "Good morning" and "Goodbye" to my grandfather before I left for school. But I didn't talk to him at all on the day he left us cos I was still mad at my sister for something she did the night before. And I really regret it would have been my last conversation with him.

I remember receiving the horrible news when my Mom called me while I was having my Business Studies class. I was devastated and couldn't help crying in class as well as to get home immediately.

And what I really regret most is that I lost the bear's claw which belonged to him. I always carried it with me in my wallet ever since he was gone. But then, MS Sports Day came and I was stupid enough to trust my bag with a friend. Unfortunately for me, she had to leave before the event ended and left my bag unattended. When I got to my bag, my wallet was gone and so was the bear's claw. Thankfully, I had my ID and my money in my track pants at the time, but still...

Despite not being able to get to know my grandfather as well as I should've, I really do miss him. After all, like I said before, he had always been there for me since I was born. Once again, may he rest in peace... Amen!

p/s: I know it happened a long time ago, but if any of you see a bear's claw (I think it was a thumb as it was pretty big, probably as big as a normal business card?) could you please let me know?

Happy Birthday, Pa!

2009-01-19T22:18:00.005Z

Just wanna give a big shout-out to my Dad.

Happy 44th Birthday, Pa!

May all your dreams and wishes come true! Wish you success in everything you do! May God bless you always! And may the year ahead bring you great joy and good health always!

Hope you had a great day on this special day of yours. I hope you'll like the gifts I got you when they finally arrive =D

Lomographic Cameras

2009-01-08T21:18:00.013Z

I've been wanting a Fisheye No. 2 lomographic camera ever since I saw it on Jenna's blog a few months back. So, I've recently decided to search for the best price available for it on the web. While browsing, I discovered that there are many other types of lomographic cameras available, which can produce lotsa different cool effects; and that made me want to get the other cameras as well. But I think I'm just gonna stick with the Fisheye No.2 for the time being. However, I'm now in a dilemma in deciding which edition to pick: White Edition, Chrome Edition or black (Paul Smith's Edition). Initially, I wanted the white one that I saw on Jenna's blog as seen immediately below.

Fisheye No. 2 White Edition
(75.04 pounds)

Fisheye No. 2 Chrome Edition
(75.04 pounds)

Chrome Edition Cameras: Supersampler, Diana F+, Colorsplasher and Fisheye 2

(243.88 pounds)

Paul Smith Edition Fisheye No. 2
(95 pounds)

Overview:
The world's greatest compact Fisheye camera is now more amazing than you ever thought possible! Not only does it have same 180-degree wide-angle view and stunning fisheye barrel distortion, but the Fisheye No. 2 adds a bulb setting for long exposures, a switch for multiple exposures on the same frame, the ability to fire both a hotshoe flash and the built-in flash, a true fisheye viewfinder, and a "full metal jacket" body treatment. With this new arsenal, the possibilities for your Fisheye lomography are endless! Uses normal 35mm film that can be developed anywhere.

For more information on lomographic cameras, check out http://shop.lomography.com/shop/